Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Druce's LiveJournal:

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Thursday, December 31st, 2009
10:36 pm	[Filter: Private] I should be enjoying this celebration, but she keeps being such a distraction at the back of my mind. It's bad enough when she offends me, but everyone I've tried to endear her to? I'm trying so hard to give her a life where she doesn't have to whore herself out. And then she pulls it all out for the world to see... If she wants to wallow in her own filth, fine. All of this just makes me want to give up on her entirely. Terrance is right... Dragons, I'm 23. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 30th, 2009
12:11 am	[Filter: Nessa] I think I've got a lot of the preparations finished. Would you like to run through them with me? (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 19th, 2009
1:04 am	[Kimberly] We need to get you out of here more often to start practicing with your cane. Is there anywhere you'd like to go? (Comment on this)
Friday, October 30th, 2009
1:49 am	[Filter: Terrance] ... Do you remember when we dressed up to go to the party in Norey? That almost seems like a lifetime ago now, doesn't it? It was... hmm... (Comment on this)
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
1:31 am	[Filter: Fayre] I'm having a bit of a problem that I could use your help with. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
3:45 am	[Filter: Private] What am I going to do with her... (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 27th, 2009
3:32 am	[Filter: Kimberly] We need to talk... (Comment on this)
Monday, August 17th, 2009
6:04 pm	[Filter: Private] I thought the triage was hard, but... Dragons, she was a mess when they brought her off the ship. There was no risk to her life, but all of these injuries are very... Nessa had to hold her down while I put her shoulder back into place... Ugh, Dragons... [Filter: Elden] It's safe to see her now, but she's not going to be lucid for some time... We're keeping her asleep for her own good. You can even see the pain she's feeling when she's asleep... We're hoping there aren't too many complications, but even if there aren't she's going to need some time to recover. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 15th, 2009
12:26 am	[Filter: Terrance] I was thinking maybe we could do something while everyone is gone... I'm not sure what though. It seems like the perfect time to do something though. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 9th, 2009
9:07 pm	[Filter: Nessa] I've been using Fenrir more for the past week than I have in a long time... I suppose I should have expected it to weight me down more. I've been feeling very tired afterward, and it gets harder to concentrate after only a few tries a day. I do know when to stop before it gets dangerous... The tiring effect isn't why I'm writing to you though. Actually, it's the opposite. I've been finding it very hard to sleep lately because... I've been having more vigorous dreams ever since I started using it more. I'd forgotten how much... I'd forgotten how creative that side of magic can be. I now remember what Miiru did to me when I was younger. Then I remember Eclipse and Yotsumungand in my later teens. Those dreams though... While it's doing wonders for my music, I really need to get more sleep. My usual remedy for dreamless sleep... somehow it isn't working fully. It seems to make it even worse. I'm loathe to make myself anything stronger without consulting someone else about the dosage. I know how dangerous these things are. I was wondering if you could help me. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 28th, 2009
10:48 pm	[Filter: Private] I want to be ready when we go to Korin. I don't want another repeat of what happened when we were ambushed... I'm nowhere near as good at it as Nessa is yet. I'm not even close to where Aine was when she was still here... It was another one of the bonds we found together after all. We both could learn it together... I will need a safe place to practice where I won't be seen... I can't tell Kimberly that she needs to be better, and not try myself. I still want her to stay, but she's going to make that impossible, isn't she? (Comment on this)
Friday, July 17th, 2009
12:23 am	[Filter: Kimberly] You are fitting in better lately. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 29th, 2009
8:49 pm	[Filter: Kimberly] Thanks... It won't be very much longer until we're in Floran and I just wanted you to know I probably would have... well, passed out if you hadn't been here to help out. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
2:20 am	[Druce's writing is rushed through the whole post] Ahh! That nearly hit me-- (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 31st, 2009
4:11 pm	[Filter: Private] It's good that they're okay. I still wish they hadn't gotten drunk the night before... I really hope this keeps up. Next year, the year after... If these attacks stop, it will at least make travelling a little less risky for them. ... Or maybe they just didn't attack on schedule? ... Dragons. I shouldn't think about that... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
1:19 am	[Filter: Jace] She says that it's only safe to try to use the technique when it's like Celeste's situation. The type of attack they get on the anniversary is different, and it's very risky to use it then... (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 11th, 2009
11:01 pm	[Filter: Private] It's not her... I think it has finally... Yes, I think it is real to me now. More real than when I first came. And even though she isn't, this has... helped. It helped a lot more than I thought it would. I can talk to her without feeling as bad as I did at first. I couldn't share Aine with her if I didn't get past that. This has all been what I needed. There are a lot of things I need now. I've been thinking about it a lot... I haven't moved on at all. I have healed so many people since it happened. I've followed through the steps I'm supposed to take as a priest... to council people out of things like this. All this time I've... I've only clung to what I used to be. If I went home they would never call me a priest. I kept telling myself that it's my father's fault... I'm the one who left with him. I didn't want to be where Aine was not. I met her again, but I've been back to where she isn't for years. ... years. Father Lycoris, and Father Desmond probably pass them in the halls every day, and I have never once seriously thought about writing to my family. They are my real family. They always have been. Lewis is... was... an escape. Nessa is family too, but I talk to her all the time... Aileen... I guess she's family too now. But I need to do a better job of holding on to what I have left. I need to write home. ... And there's no point in letting it go on like this. [Filter: Father Desmond] Father, I'm not sure if you would remember me, but my parents are living at your temple right now, and... I'm pretty far from home. I don't trust any couriers to reach them... I was wondering if you would let me write a letter to them here, and you could give it to them? (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 5th, 2009
1:54 am	[Filter: Kimberly] I think... you should have tried out for that play. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 26th, 2009
1:26 am	[Filter: Aileen, Nessa] We should be there shortly... (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 12th, 2009
8:42 pm	[Filter: Nessa] We should be going very, very soon. (Comment on this)